We went to Kabul (our favorite Afghani restaurant) with Darren tonight. It is now 10 pm and I am full from dinner and sucking down a slurpee from 7-11. It is now 10:16. I like going out to eat but I won’t be able to do this every night unless I take a laptop with me or something.

Today’s first random song from the jukebox is Cecilia.
Making love in the afternoon with Cecilia,
Up in my bedroom, making love
I got up to wash my face
When I come back to bed
Someone’s taken my place

This doesn’t help because I already have sex on the brain and this song seems to be about sex to some extent.

Another try, Baker Baker by Tori Amos. What the hell is up with this song? I can’t figure it out. It’s about a woman whose boyfriend just took off and left her, claiming she was hiding from him and he was unable to get close to her, and she was already “running” from him in a lot of ways, she admits. But the part about baker, baker, make me a day, and what if his heart was made of icing, I don’t quite get it.

Third try, If I Could by October Project. Looks like an ordinary love song, about dedication and unconditional love and always being there for each other. Interestingly, it is dedicated “For Kyle and David.” Maybe this means they are someone’s kids? Or that the writer has two lovers and is pledging this to both of them?

So maybe there is a bit of a poly message there? Now I’m thinking back to Cecilia, when I come back to bed someone’s taken my place. Is there something these three have in common, or a story running through them at least? Makes me think of my own polyness. It’s under the surface, but it’s there and I can’t just ignore it and hope it goes away.

If I could, I would always tell the truth
I would always love you, From the heart

If I could, I would love you as you are
Take you inside, Into my heart
Into my arms, Into my life