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I have not been motivated to ride my bike or anything. I think I rode it once this month. C and I are probably going to go for a walk today, that will be cool. I have also not paid much attention to my diet and have been stuffing myself with whatever tastes good. Not a good plan to lose weight. In general I think I eat pretty healthy, but usually eat a bit too much. I think my diet would be fine if I were more physically active, so the exercise is really the most important thing.

I’m still frustrated at not getting the type & amount of sex I would like. I haven’t talked to Michelle about this, because she seems to break down, get defensive, etc. when I talk about it. So I just masturbate more frequently and play with my toys… I have some wild fantasies about having sex with Michelle, others, or mutliple at a time. My favorite one is with Michelle (or some female) in 69 position on top of me, with some male screwing her from behind, so I get to see both of them up close and lick them as desired… ...

Dave and Busters was great. I got to spend some time talking to Notch about things we should be working on or watching out for. Michelle was there with Laura and others, so she stayed with us to go to dinner. Michelle and Angie both got plenty of doofy prizes. Tied House was fun, got to see and greet all kinds of folks from work. Michelle felt a little out of place and tired. I still can’t really imagine what life will be like without Bryant, Ambar and Tara around the office. We’ll see… ...

I am taking the team to Dave and Buster’s for some off-site activity. We are all meeting at Tied House for the Bryant Farewell dinner after that, including some folks who were laid off. Not much is happening in my life… I’ve been tired all week, but this is not a big deal.

Since I am new to LiveJournal, this is my first “real” post. I dug up some material I had written in other forums (regarding the recent tragedy, and my thoughts, feelings and beliefs) and I have posted two of those messages “backdated” to Sep 12 and Sep 15. Things are still up in the air and a bit morbid here at work, since we had layoffs yesterday. I am now going to go home and tend to my sick weety.

This was something I posted to a mailing list, and I’m reposting it here… Regarding a comment “We are not fighting a mental state, we’re fighting actual individuals that carry out criminal acts”… This is true, but I can also see the truth in what [the previous poster] was saying as well. Terrorists do exist in a vacuum, sometimes, but they usually turn out to be fringe-dwellers whose own society considers to be wackos – take Timothy McVeigh for example. However, the more organized “terrorist group”, whether it is the one supported by /bin/laden or the IRA, has a level of support in their homeland that we cannot ignore. The “support” ranges from “I don’t believe it’s right, but I’m not going to turn them in” on up to “You can have your meeting in here, and if you need weapons, I’ll give you a discount”. ...

A wish for peace I’m starting out this journal with a piece I wrote last week, Septemer 12, the day after the tragedy. Not all journal entries will be long like this, but it seems appropriate to post this here. Feel free to comment. As many of us have, I have been spending time talking with friends and co-workers about yesterday’s tragedy. My thoughts and feelings echo those I have heard from others, so I know my experience is not an isolated one, but it is not a pleasant one either, as one would expect during such a time. ...

Diet and Exercise Monday- worked out on treadmill, Krispy Kreme, Cuisineer Tuesday- no exercise, lunch at cafeteria, dinner steak/salad/veggies Learn Java Monday- worked on JDK Spend time with friends Monday- saw Corrii, Darren, Josh Other goals Learn Japanese Write stories Roleplay Practice typing drills Plan next vacation

Some things I would like to do with my free time Exercise Learn Japanese Learn Java Write stories Roleplay Spend time with friends Practice typing drills Plan next vacation Goals for coming year Lose weight, get down to 200 Eat at home more, eat out less Observations I wrote myself back in May of this year expressing a desire to spend time on these same things (Exercise, Learn Japanese, Write stories, Roleplay). But, I have been pretty consistently spending time on other things besides this. I have a tendency to spend time watching lame TV shows, or watching my work email when I’m at home, and other things I don’t need or particularly want to do. I’m not sure how to turn this around, other than setting some goals for things I want to do and get started on them. ...

May 26, 2000 I feel like I didn’t really get much done today, other than for my status report. I wanted to work on documentation, but I kept finding other little things to do instead. I managed to corner Daryl and Steve Novell to talk to them about the Kana mail server. I also helped Greg Notch on the Solaris Fetch Project. It was a productive day, but I didn’t do the one thing I had intended to do. ...