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Friday: Don’t remember right now. Saturday: Went to Healdsburg to visit, got to see M’s parents, grandma, cousin, a few others. Spent most of the afternoon up there. We also stopped to see John and Angie and look in on the cats. Cool. Sunday: Not much of anything, went shopping with M & C at Frys and also went to the fabric store.

I learned how to use the Memories feature. The name “Memories” suggests a scrapbook or something, but this is more like a keyword index. Cool feature. I am using it to create a topic index of sorts, though there are only three items worth indexing now. Btw the “Add to Memories” icon is on the “Read Comments” page (heart-plus icon) Apparently you can add your posts or other people’s posts to the Memories keyword index, and view just yours, just others, or all together. You can also make the keyword associations Private, Public or Friends only; I guess this is if you want to link to someone else’s drivel and label it “drivel” you can keep your label to yourself if desired. Hmm. ...

I think our beliefs are an important part of what makes us human. A belief is an assertion, assumption, or expectation, and the collection of beliefs form a foundation for our thoughts and our actions. A belief is essentially a thought which we feel is true, so it requires both thinking and feeling to hold a belief. It can be conscious, such as something we have learned, or it can be subconscious, such as something we have always known and felt and seem to do so without thinking. ...

Seen in a friend’s journal (quoted from some other person’s tee shirt): You’re just pissed because my lifestyle looks cooler than your lifestyle. I guess that wouldn’t really be the shirt for me. Maybe I should get one that says I seem to be having tremendous difficulty with my lifestyle. That is about how I feel lately. Perhaps that is just the “grass is always greener” syndrome or perhaps I am just coming to realize that this is not really how I want to live. ...

Other things I want to write about: Beliefs and belief systems Openness and honesty Hopes, fears, expectations, visualization Friendship and expectations Trusting others and expectations

Reviewing… Friday: Worked later than expected to do a code push, then went to gaming. Gaming was cool! We got some cool experience and got to banish a demon. Saturday, Sunday: Didn’t do much over the weekend, skimmed some old emails and found old journal entries, so I posted them here. They are backdated, skim back for anything earlier than “Wish for Peace” for the old entries. Mostly about exercise and how I wanted to spend my free time but didn’t. ...

I believe everyone experiences empathy to a certain degree. To me, empathy means a combination of sensing what someone else is feeling (receiving) and pushing a feeling at someone else (broadcasting). However, a lot of people use “empathy” to mean receiving and not broadcasting, so perhaps there is another word for sending/broadcasting which is better used here. In order to receive feelings from someone else, I need to be intensely aware of my own feelings first. Picking up on a feeling from someone else is easy, but if I’m not in tune with my own feelings first, then it’s difficult to tell which feelings are “mine” and which are being picked up from someone else. So, it’s important for me to take my own “emotional temperature” often, so that I know when it changes, and I can be aware of whether the new feelings are triggered by something in my life, or being picked up from someone else. ...

This is a repeat of some earlier material. Emotions serve us well, whether they be fear, sadness, anger, joy, contentment, pride, etc. I think of these as the lights and dials on the instrument panel, by which we can evaluate our own state of being. In a car, we might see a light that says “oil pressure low”, and our usual reaction is to try and figure out why. It does no good to try and argue with the light, or cover it up, or ignore it, or blame the instrument panel, or become embarrassed or ashamed of our awful indicator lights. ...

Thursday: busy day at work. Met with David B, Luis and Jason on how to recover repository2. Met with David B and Angela to discuss how to communicate changes to people on various aspects of the site. Spoke to David B about anomalous test times from David H. Break for lunch and Anime, watched Lain. Gather performance numbers from QI and send them to David H. Spoke to David H about what the numbers mean, agreed to drill down more on gladiator and network factors, since QI latency seems to not track test tool latency. Asked Bruce to look into gladiator latency with Doug Young info, and try to simulate David H’s test. Started file move on Repo2. Opened keystone slip. Spent an hour talking to David B about issues of the day. ...

Quick rundown of what has happened so far this week. Monday: Held training on Fetch and DNS. This went well. David B. is not back yet, but there is not much needing attention. I spent some time in the afternoon faxing letters to my representative and senators asking them “Please don’t give up my civil liberties today” - see www.eff.org for the Draconian wiretap provisions and other concessions to the “wish list” of law enforcement. I got my three reps, then went on to bulk-fax the members of the conference committee. ...