I have slowed down a bit on the writing about beliefs, relationships, communication, etc. I have a few more topics I want to cover, but it’s not as urgent anymore. I have received very few comments on them, on line or in real life, so I don’t really know if other folks are enjoying reading them or not. Anyway, the important thing is to write about what I am interested in, so I will enjoy writing more and do it more often. With that goal in mind, I will need to pick some other topics, but I will come back to beliefs, relationships, etc. from time to time. ...

Things to do, personal Write more Roleplay Go out with friends Exercise Things to do, household Get rid of desk Get rid of tv stand Tighten loose screws on chairs Figure out taxes Paint bathroom Install air conditioner Wish list New laptop

Tuesday: Actually rode my bike during lunch today, though I forgot my water bottle. Had to stop twice on the hill of death and cough up something that didn’t quite belong in my lungs. Showered and still had time to grab lunch on the way to staff meeting. Other stuff happened after this, probably involving another meeting and more emails. Wednesday: Don’t remember much about this day. Thursday: Did some bits of managing (which mostly amounts to talking to people about work that other people are working on). A meeting, then anime, then a bit more email and taking, then time to go take M to an appointment. Went to dinner with M… Spent most of the evening playing with the palm 3 and installing some free software called avantgo that promises to keep my palm 3 supplied with the current version of The Onion for free (which came in handy during meetings Friday). ...

In the area of friendship, I have certain expectations of a “friend” that I might not have of everyone else around me. Let me begin by describing the expectations I have of everyone, including strangers, and work forward. 1. I expect honesty and general good will from everyone. Honesty is different from openness. By honesty I mean that what one says is truthful and there is no attempt to decieve, but that doesn’t mean that the other person will necessarily tell me everything. This means that if someone asks me something I am uncomfortable with answering, I would prefer to say “I don’t want to talk about that” than to answer with a lie. In return I expect people to not lie to me. ...

Friday: Don’t remember right now. Saturday: Went to Healdsburg to visit, got to see M’s parents, grandma, cousin, a few others. Spent most of the afternoon up there. We also stopped to see John and Angie and look in on the cats. Cool. Sunday: Not much of anything, went shopping with M & C at Frys and also went to the fabric store.

I learned how to use the Memories feature. The name “Memories” suggests a scrapbook or something, but this is more like a keyword index. Cool feature. I am using it to create a topic index of sorts, though there are only three items worth indexing now. Btw the “Add to Memories” icon is on the “Read Comments” page (heart-plus icon) Apparently you can add your posts or other people’s posts to the Memories keyword index, and view just yours, just others, or all together. You can also make the keyword associations Private, Public or Friends only; I guess this is if you want to link to someone else’s drivel and label it “drivel” you can keep your label to yourself if desired. Hmm. ...

I think our beliefs are an important part of what makes us human. A belief is an assertion, assumption, or expectation, and the collection of beliefs form a foundation for our thoughts and our actions. A belief is essentially a thought which we feel is true, so it requires both thinking and feeling to hold a belief. It can be conscious, such as something we have learned, or it can be subconscious, such as something we have always known and felt and seem to do so without thinking. ...

Seen in a friend’s journal (quoted from some other person’s tee shirt): You’re just pissed because my lifestyle looks cooler than your lifestyle. I guess that wouldn’t really be the shirt for me. Maybe I should get one that says I seem to be having tremendous difficulty with my lifestyle. That is about how I feel lately. Perhaps that is just the “grass is always greener” syndrome or perhaps I am just coming to realize that this is not really how I want to live. ...

Other things I want to write about: Beliefs and belief systems Openness and honesty Hopes, fears, expectations, visualization Friendship and expectations Trusting others and expectations

Reviewing… Friday: Worked later than expected to do a code push, then went to gaming. Gaming was cool! We got some cool experience and got to banish a demon. Saturday, Sunday: Didn’t do much over the weekend, skimmed some old emails and found old journal entries, so I posted them here. They are backdated, skim back for anything earlier than “Wish for Peace” for the old entries. Mostly about exercise and how I wanted to spend my free time but didn’t. ...